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Better Morning?

Even though he said that getting out of bed was like getting out of a black hole, Ewen still seemed in better spirits this morning than the last few days. Maybe it helped that I told him right as he opened his eyes that his friend had texted and face-timed him twice already and that his other friend, Rich, was coming over at 10:30. But after he got out of the "black hole" he took his 5mg of propranolol (because he wakes up with anxiety). Then played some Ag.ario (his other calming drug). We all went out on the trampoline after about 20 minutes of screen time. It was he and I and his two sisters. We kicked the small, soft ball around the trampoline for half and hour and had a bit of fun. He wasn't his usual over energetic and happy self. But he wasn't depressed either. He was hanging in there and only a little lethargic at the end. He seemed like he had a little fun too. Then he came in side and played more Ag.ario. His friend is here now and Rich, is such a welcome di

Going off Lexapro?

Today Ewen woke up depressed and didn't want to take his Lexapro. We decided that he didn't have to and went right to look up what else we could do. I ordered something called KalmPro off some website. It seemed ok. He had a friend over but they were both quiet and played separate video games all day. Ewen has been playing this game Ag.ario all day. He records his games and puts them up online. Today he skyped with a kid 9 hrs outside of our timezone with a french accent and they teamed up on Ag.ario together. So he is doing cool things but he was depressed regardless all day. Now he is talking with a friend on FaceTime and they are playing Ag.ario together. I dont' know how to feel about taking him of the Lexapro. Before it was like, in 3 weeks we might have relief but now I have to search for it again. I called and acupuncture specialist who was recommended, and emailed her. I also left a message at some chiropractor who I always thought was BS but my friends swea

Christmas Day - Day 3 of Lexapro for Child

Ewen is only 10-years-old and two weeks ago, out of the blue, he started having debilitating panic attacks back to back and saying he would rather be dead than feel the pain of them. Before this he was just your average straight-A student, genius video game player and awesome soccer player on the Gold travel team. Then two weeks ago he had his first panic attack at a school band concert and that started the spiral downwards. We ended up in the emergency room...twice. I will put together a schedule of what happened over those two weeks of hell when I get the motivation/time. For now, I will start here at day 3 of Lexapro, and it also happens to be Christmas day. I give Ewen 2.5 mg. each morning. The child psychiatrist wanted us to cut the 10mg pill in half and start him on 5 mg but I have been cutting it into quarters and giving him 2.5mg instead. Why have I done this? Because I know anxiety medication well since I have been taking it for 13 years, and I think that what cause