10-Year-Old with Panic (PANS)

Today is Friday, 5pm. We are at home relaxing. The girls are playing the Sims in their room and talking up a storm together and being very imaginative. Ewen is Face-timing with a new friend from his school. They are playing on the same Minecraft server together. I gave Ewen his first Guanfacine tablet this afternoon at 4pm, only a 1/4mg. I gave it to him an hour ago and just asked him how he feels... if he is tired at all? I suppose it shouldn't start working immediately anyway. I'm curious if he will sleep better/longer tonight. He was up at 5am this morning after going to sleep at 10pm. I want it to be the miracle pill although I know they don't exist. But he had a good day at school. He teacher said he is very happy and does his work, takes direction well and plays well. I think that is good that he has already found a friend to play Minecraft with on the phone. So things are good with Ewen I suppose. He still huffs all the time and he still wants things to b...

Tuesday Dec 22nd Benadryl 10 ML's 9:30 am Benadryl 10 ML's 1:00   1/2 propanol 3:12 1/2 propanol 4:17 1/2 propanol 6:14 1/2 propanol 8:55pm 1/2 propanol 10pm Sleep at 10:50 , worried, eyes hurting, swallowing still bothering him. Loose stool at one point. Took Jeff and I to get him to sleep with music and calm story but no panic attack. Nightmares. Swallowing excessive saliva all through sleep all night long until the morning.  Wednesday Dec 23rd 1/2 propanol 8:40 am 1/4 Lexapro 8:40 am At 11am, not panicky and didn't need more propanol he said. But he can't swallow food through tight throat. Had some smoothie for breakfast. Wants to keep head in iPod video games and constantly chew gum to control excessive saliva. 1/2 propanol 1:10pm still can't swallow food. Had a bit of a smoothie for lunch. But happy and not chewing gum for saliva. 1/2 propanol, 4:50 pm he said he was thinking bad thoughts so he knew he needed it again. 1/2 propa...

Today we went to see a new doctor and we talked about instead of Intuiv, starting Ewen on a very, very lose dose of Prozac and titrating up very, very slowly. I think that makes sense.  It is in liquid form so we can titrate it how we want to. He will have such a low dose that it will barely do anything at all for a week but his body and brain will be getting used to the weirdness of a new drug. Then we can put it up super slowly, hopefully with no "activating".  I hope it is the right thing to do. We can continue with the Propranolol with it too. I feel a bit of hope again. I met with the Dr. by myself today to make sure that he was right for Ewen and that I liked what he said. He made the most sense in correlation with what I have read and researched and experienced myself. He knew the science and was able to explain his reasons for why kids don't get benzodiazepines (they just don't respond and react to them like adults do). But he said we could give one at night...

Today Ewen woke up depressed and didn't want to take his Lexapro. We decided that he didn't have to and went right to look up what else we could do. I ordered something called KalmPro off some website. It seemed ok. He had a friend over but they were both quiet and played separate video games all day. Ewen has been playing this game Ag.ario all day. He records his games and puts them up online. Today he skyped with a kid 9 hrs outside of our timezone with a french accent and they teamed up on Ag.ario together. So he is doing cool things but he was depressed regardless all day. Now he is talking with a friend on FaceTime and they are playing Ag.ario together. I dont' know how to feel about taking him of the Lexapro. Before it was like, in 3 weeks we might have relief but now I have to search for it again. I called and acupuncture specialist who was recommended, and emailed her. I also left a message at some chiropractor who I always thought was BS but my friends swea...