Ewen is in his bedroom editing an Agario video. Since he is doing video editing I'm calling it a part of homeschool. I also have some work for him to do on the dining room table this afternoon.
We have his first acupuncture appointment this afternoon. It is going to cost $90. I'm not sure if it will do anything to help since today was our 2nd day of Prozac and I am sure that meds interfere with natural and holistic treatment. But we will try. Maybe it will help?
I'm giving Ewen barely any Prozac this week to start off with. It comes in a liquid and we are supposed to be giving him 1 ML...which apparently is very low. But yesterday I gave him .1 ML, to get his body used to it. And today I gave him a smidge under .2 ML's. There is no reason not to titrate it so low. He is so ultra sensitive that I want to give his body time to get to know the drug before we put it up enough to make a difference.
He did so badly on the Lexapro that I think this is the right way to do it. I'm going to keep the dosage unusually and extremely low for 2 weeks.
I myself take Buspar and Wellbutrin. I take less than what I am "supposed" to and it helps me very much anyway. I have the Wellbutrin mixed into a liquid at a local pharmacy and I only take 2ML's of it. Any more than that and I find myself clenching my teeth together. But I have found the right (unusually small) dose to give me a bit of a boost and motivation with no side effects. Someone might say that I am just getting the placebo effect, but I am hyper-aware of everything going on in my body and can tell when a medication is affecting it.
The good thing about Ewen taking this minute doses of Prozac is that we are on a path to getting better but so far we are not going through the hell of side effects. I think that getting his body used to it very slowly is key, and there is an end in sight possibly?
He is also taking inositol and I think that since he has been taking it for 4 weeks now, that it is very much helping his panic symptoms. It doesn't help his "bad thoughts" though, neither does the propranolol. That is where the Prozac comes in hopefully in 4-6 weeks after it kicks in. Also we hope by then he will be well into CBT to also help with his negative thoughts. I look forward to the day that he looses his fear of water.
My therapist told me that Ewen is fearful of water because we have floating anxiety and it attaches itself to things. So his anxiety has attached itself to water because Owen has this new fear of drowning. It has also attached itself to eating with is the worst part since he has to eat all day long. This is the hardest part of his new anxiety.
Today is Friday, I hope we have a good weekend. Wish us luck :)
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