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This Morning

Well, last night Ewen didn't actually go to sleep when I thought he did. Apparently when I left him with his eyes closed, he sat back up and read until midnight.  Then he came in and told me that he couldn't go to sleep so I went and sat on his bed and he didn't huff but he did do some muscle squeezing for a while until he dropped off finally.

So it was a slow morning and we ended up being late to school. But he was very happy this morning. We opened the windows in the car and he played his techno music on his iPhone and pumped his fist up through the sun roof. It was pretty funny. But when we got to school he refused to take in the yoga ball I had bought him to replace his chair at his desk. His teacher has been frustrated by Ewen's excessive rocking back and fourth in his chair so we thought we would try a yoga ball instead. But Ewen refused to take it in there this morning, suddenly realizing that he would be standing out a bit much I suppose. He told me he wouldn't rock in his chair and I felt a bit sorry for him. But I also noticed he seemed less wiggly this morning. He didn't huff even once and he wasn't antsy and dissatisfied. So maybe he will be comfortable not rocking in his chair today.

This week Mike is taking Ewen on his class trip to a theme park on Thursday and Friday. Then Ewen has a soccer tournament near the theme park on Saturday and Sunday. So they will be gone for 4 nights. I hope he does OK. I worry about him so much.

I have been taking Prozac for a few weeks now and have titrated up to 4ml's. I don't really have any side effects except for I tend to clench my jaw and get headaches. My doctor seems to think that will go away soon so I will stick it out for longer.

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