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Tuesday May 3rd, Good Morning

Prozac 4.1 ml, Condone 1/8 a pill, antibiotics (Zithromax) and probiotics

Last night Ewen went to sleep without me even having to rub his feet or his back. He just fell asleep with a bit of huffing but in a pretty normal way. I couldn't believe it. And then this morning he woke up happy and he was fine going to school (Mike took him this morning). He was huffing a bit but his tics weren't bad. He didn't seem nervous or upset at all. He was totally chill. I hope this happens every morning.

There was no school yesterday due to a teacher work day and he was pretty grumpy about having to write his book report. It is a bit concerning how much he hates doing work. I told him that has to change. He finished it then we made some note cards together for his speech to the class about the book. He practiced his speech and I timed it. He did well. Since he will present on Friday we will practice a few times this week.

He still isn't as calm as I would like him to be and he is always needing to keep focussed on something it seems. He doesn't stop to have a look at the world around him very often...if ever and that used to be fairly normal for him.

Yesterday we rode bikes to the park and on the swings he told me that he thought that this whole anxiety business has made him a better person. I asked if it was because he appreciates things more now?
He said no and didn't know why. It was nice to hear him be so positive though.

I said I thought it made me a better person too because I don't yell at the kids anymore. I asked if he had noticed that and he said he noticed that I don't yell at him but sometimes do still get mad at his sisters. Hmmm...probably need to work on that.


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