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Crummy Day Bad Mom

(4ml prozac, less than 1/4 clonodine) The clonodine helped.


It is hard to write in here tonight. Today is July 4th. It has been a very bad day. My youngest cried all day and listened to no one. She is 7. My oldest kept telling me she was depressed and Ewen said he was having anxiety again tonight and I gave him a clonodine for the first time in a long time. I forgot to get him his new prescription of Zithromax that he was supposed to start today.

I looked up the supplement my Oldest is taking for her cycle, evening primrose oil. One of the side effects listed is depression. So even though it is helping her skin and hair, we are going to stop taking that.

So tonight I feel like a bad parent. If I could just get up in the morning things would be better but I am very fatigued...throughout the day I am too. I will try drinking more coffee tomorrow. Maybe that will help.

Today I am glad I take Prozac because it was one of those days that the whole family falls completely apart. I also hurt my back yesterday and it has been painful all day today. So that didn't help things.I love the summer. Why do the kids have to be so difficult. I just need to get my act together and be more structured. Or something.

So...crummy day.

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