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Past Few Days

Tuesday night - 500  mg Zithromax 4ml prozac, melatonin, fish oil, 1/2 magnesium, b12 1000mg
Wednesday day, working hard to not be anxious all day, depressed at night.

Wednesday night - 4ml prozac 1/4 of a 3mg melatonin, fish oil, b12
Today - Thursday...better than Wednesday but still dissatisfied and "addicted to fun" as he puts it...always needing to be entertained. I took his phone away when he wanted to play in the car. I didn't want him to go from his computer screen to his  phone screen and never be looking away. I worry when he feels like he has to distract himself all the time.

After his first dose of Zithromax he was in bad shape the first two days then better by the 3rd.

Tonight - 1/4 Clonodine (I wanted him to sleep better tonight after his depression and freak out last night).  fish oil.

He is still awake. It is 10:40 and he fights going to sleep and he fights getting off the computer.

I am still doing better on the Prozac but it makes me tired and despondent. My Dr. told me to add Wellbutrin back into the mix. So I will do that. She said she wants me off all meds in a year and that made me feel better.

I think that as long as Ewen is struggling, I will struggle too. He is doing much better than before and we can live OK like this. But I worry.

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