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Out of the Hole

( 4ml Prozac, fish oil, 1/2 magnesium, probiotics, 1mg melatonin)

Today Ewen went to a birthday party a couple of hours from home and had a lot of fun. He hung out with his dad a lot today which is what he used to do before he got sick. When he got sick he completely switched from Mike to needing me 24/7. He was not interested in hanging out with Mike. Daddy was all about watching soccer, playing soccer, enjoying everything that Ewen was good at and going out and having fun. Mommy was there to make sure he was feeling OK. So he switched from Mike to me. I realized this morning as Mike got up early to get Ewen's soccer stuff together and go to the store to get a present for the party, that he was taking over his old role as Ewen's care taker. I like that because Ewen has to be so active all the time that I don't have time to spend with the girls. So if Mike focusses on Ewen with his crazy social life and activities, I can focus on the girls and everything else.

It was really nice to see that Mike taking care of Ewen's activities was the norm again.

Ewen did a bit of huffing today but not much. He huffed a bit while falling asleep and twitched his butt a lot which he always does now when he falls asleep. The strangest thing is that after he falls asleep his whole body twitches like crazy and it frightens me a bit and I hope that there is nothing larger wrong. So I will talk to his doctor about it next time I see her.

He seems happy and relaxed. I'm not looking forward to school since I don't want the stress to trigger anything and have the PANS flair up again. I decided to keep him on the Prozac through the summer so he has some help when he starts middle school.

He didn't do much if any nose twitching today which was good. He does well when he exercised and hangs out with friends rather than playing video games all day...go figure. He doesn't need them anymore. He still likes to have a lot of distraction but it isn't a NEED based thing so much anymore. He just likes  to watch his Youtube videos and play his Agar.io and Slitherio or whatever it is called.

Yesterday we went tubing down the river about 45 minutes away from our house and the water was crystal clear and cold. The crickets and frogs were singing loudly in the trees and the sun was bright overhead. The sky was the kind of blue you see in paintings with dotted clouds that actually moved even though they barely seemed real. We went with two families and Ewen had a fantastic time.

I remember at Christmas when he was in terrible terrible shape. When I see him swimming and having fun and GENUINELY having fun (for a while there he said he had a good day then retract it when I pressed him about it). I love that he is feeling good again.  I absolutely love it and I am so glad that we are not in that hole anymore that we were in when I started this blog.

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