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Teacher Conference (End of Week 8 Prozac, Beginning of Week 9)

When I was a small child in England my parents used to play Puff The Magic Dragon. Even though the song ended sadly I just assumed that Peter, Paul and Mary left the happy part out...that there wasn't enough time in the song to tell the whole story about how Jackie went back when he was older and Puff ended up feeling better and going off and meeting another dragon that he fell in love with, especially since dragons live forever. I just figured that the sorrow was temporary for both Jackie Paper and Puff. Tonight as the Pandora station "sleepy time children" plays an instrumental glokenspiel version of Puff, I just feel irritated that such a sad song is a popular children's song. I also turn off "You are my Sunshine" because "Please don't take my sunshine away" is just a reminder of how we can quickly loose the ones we love the most and that is what the song is about.

So I may sound a bit down in the dumps tonight but actually I have been feeling better today. I put up my dosage of Wellbutrin and it has stopped my clenching my teeth and hurting my jaw. I feel a bit happier and more clear headed. The Buspar still helps the anxiety. I suppose I am "coping" through all this too.

Ewen said he had a good day at school. He got in a bit of trouble in computer class which is odd for him. He told me tonight that he was trying to impress the teacher with his knowledge. But he ended up irritating her so much that she spoke to Mrs. Webb (his new 5th grade teacher) about him.

Which brings me to...I had a conference with Mrs. Webb today to see how Ewen was doing in class. She said that it turns out that he is extraordinary with how advanced he is with academics. She said he is far beyond grade level. She hadn't noticed his huffing. I told her about how hard the past 2.5 months have been. I told her that the first medication he was on made him have suicidal thoughts and I cried. She was wonderful and supportive and she said she was going to take care of my boy. I already know that she is an organized and brilliant teacher and person because she was with Amira.
Well she told me about how the computer teacher took her aside and said how Ewen was insufferable during his first day of class. I explained to Mrs. Webb about how Ewen makes videos on Final Cut Pro already and is studying Java Script and the computer is his best friend. I also told her about how the side effects of Prozac is making him a jittery mess. I don't know. I'm not sure how all this relates but I ended up going to talk to the computer teacher too and I gave her a little background on Ewen and explained the side effects and also his profficiency on the computer. I think I just basically asked for some understanding. I told her he is still fragile and that it was only a few days ago that he finally told me he felt OK for the first time since this all happened.

It is very late. I suppose I will post this and check for errors tomorrow.
Goodnight.

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