I'm at gymnastics with with the girls, sitting in the parents area. Ewen is at soccer tonight. He went with the car pool and DH headed out there on his own when he got back from work. I loaded him up with all the medicine that Ewen takes at 7pm. Soccer practice is usually from 5:30-7:30 but DH is going to go get him from the field at 6:30. This way we can ease hm back in again. It is pretty iffy not knowing if the Prozac is making him so fatigued that soccer sucks or what to do about it. Over the next 2 weeks we plan to get him up to 10mg. I'm wary though because of his fatigue and today at CBT he was very splotchy and squirmy. I'm starting to think that maybe when he is super stressed at CBT that he gets splotchy from stress. Today he hung on to me as we sat on the little couch in the little tiny room like when he was little with how clingy he was. Today we worked on his swallowing and he practiced with a granola bar. Katie took bites of her granola bar and they timed how long it took her to chew and swallow a bite. Then it was his turn and she gave him 30 more seconds than it took her. The whole point was to get him to just chew it up and swallow his food without all of the drama and ritual he had been doing...swishing it around in his mouth for a long time before swallowing it. At CBT he has to just chew it up and swallow it. We talked a bit about soccer too and Katie said he should keep doing his activities and be rewarded too. I wonder how it is going out there. It is 6:19pm so he only has 10 minutes left. It is beautiful weather out there. There is even a smidge of a chance he is having fun? And that he won't feel like he's been "hit in the head by a sledge hammer" afterwards (I made sure he drank lots of water all day incase dehydration was contributing to his fatigue). He hasn't been drinking much because of his swallowing issue so I really pushed that today and he cooperated.
OK so now it is 10:30pm. Ewen did fine at soccer and went home after an hour. He told me tonight as he fell asleep that he enjoyed playing but the problem is how he feels after soccer, like he has been hit by a train. He said that he feels so awful that he never wants to play organized soccer again. He said he wants to wait and try after the side effects of the medicine go away but I can't imagine something this severe just going away. I'm really worried. What if it is something medical and separate from the Prozac and we are missing it because of everything that is going on?
I get so scared that maybe he has a brain tumor and we are missing it but I can't imagine making him do an MRI now because I am panicking. They are such scary tests. I will call his Dr. tomorrow and ask about the terrible fatigue after playing soccer. I am sad for him. He is going to loose his place on the Elite Soccer Gold Team that he worked so hard to get. This is taking so much from him I can't bare it.
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