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The Letter I Emailed To His Soccer Coach Tonight



Hi Jason,

To give you an update on Ewen. He is still taking the beta blocker a little and is on day 20 of Prozac. The main side effect of the Prozac right now is extreme fatigue and it comes with the most intensity (like he has been "hit by a truck") after Ewen plays soccer or exercises vigorously, and it lasts for hours. We are so close to the 4-week mark when the Prozac is supposed to start actually helping more than hurting, so we don't want to stop now that we have come this far. But at the same time it is really hard for him that it is affecting his soccer and the team. He has literally breathed soccer since he was 2-years-old. So this part of his ordeal is one of the most alarming and confusing. 


If this Prozac fatigue side effect doesn't wear off in the next 2 or 3 weeks, he will have to change medicines to a different SSRI then we all wait all over again for another 4 weeks to see if this next SSRI helps without more awful or debilitating side effects. 


He is at home with me during the day and is homeschooling for now. We go to The University Psyche Program every morning to do an intensive CBT therapy program that lasts for 3 weeks. 


Honestly, Mike and I are beside ourselves hoping to get our Ewen back. It is so confusing and up and down every day. I will keep you updated but please know that if he misses practice or games right now that it is utterly heart breaking for us and we are doing everything we can to make this all right again.

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