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Sleep Time

I'm sitting with him on his bed while he falls asleep and all his mouth saliva noise and lip smacking and huffing is driving me insane. He is trying to fall asleep. I suppose his anxiety is this much because he was allowed to fall asleep an hour after his bed time because his class play (that he left behind when he left school) was tonight and he agreed to meet his class for ice cream after the play. I thought this was a big step forward so I let his bed time slide a little . I wasn't sure about the timing since we put his Prozac up. Then when we got there I let him order his ice cream and he came back with a monster chocolate sunday with gummie worms and mnm's among with the chocolate and whipped cream. Sugar is not good for anxiety or cut bacteria and he already had a ton of sugary soda at the faire today. So I was dismayed when I saw what he came back with. I ended up taking it away from him after he ate half of it. That was fun to do in front of the other parents.
I'm hoping 10mg for the next few days will help and not just give him terrible anxiety. I'm sure a late bed time and a mound of sugar and chemical colors didn't help either. He used to be allergic to yellow #5 when he was little. So once again I feel like a shitty parent. He's finally falling asleep and it is after 11pm. That's my day over now too. No me time tonight.

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